Ruby Tuesday

This morning on the way to work I heard the song "Ruby Tuesday." I was flooded with feelings of longing for the free spirited person I was 27 years ago. Singing the lyrics brought up a few tears and many memories of my red '66 mustang which I named Ruby. My friend Pam and I listened to the Stones religiously back then. The name suited my car as well as it's driver's untamed spirit. I was 18, never at home and loving every minute of freedom that Ruby gave me. Some days we would drive right past the high school where I was supposed to be getting prepared for life. Back then I was more interested in experiencing life than hearing a lecture about it. Rarely having a destination in mind, Ruby would take me to the mountains where we would sit and listen to the Stones and take in the beauty of nature.

Hearing that song again makes me want to jackhammer away at the years of emotional concrete that life has poured on me in an attempt to crush my spirit. I want to break free from the weight of all of the crap that life has thrown at me and fully commit to my dreams. I haven't let those dreams slip completely away, I just haven't found my way to them through all of the cement. That song reminded me of how free I used to feel, and how I used to believe in myself. It is long overdue for me to feel that way again.

I recall questioning myself when I named my car, I really wasn't sure at the time why I did it. Now it makes perfect sense. Maybe on some level, I was sending out a message for me to remember now. It is time to free yourself because it is the only way to be. I don't have my ruby red mustang anymore and have lost touch with Pam, but I just reconnected with my Ruby Tuesday soul.

As I neared the turn to work, I smiled with the thought of just driving right past it. I turned anyway and went to work. Something inside me has shifted ever so slightly and I see myself soon just driving right past my day job and finding the road that will take me to my dreams. Soon Ruby, soon.

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