I'm Not Going To Try Anymore

I'm not going to try anymore. I know that sounds like a whiny, giving up kind of statement, but I am not intending it that way. Trying to do something implies right off the bat that you don't think you can do it. Every time I have tried something, it either meant I was just doing it to please someone else, or that I didn't really think I would be any good at it and didn't really want to be. Trying represents forcing, pushing, struggling, sprinkled with an unhealthy dose of resentment. I'm not talking about stuff like trying a new restaurant, or trying a new activity, because that type of trying is fun, adventurous and I completely encourage it. I am referring to things like "I'll try to get it done" and "I am trying so hard to make this work."

Trying implies something forced - not at all natural. No good ever comes from that. I work best when I do something that I am excited about and that I feel compelled to share. It flows through me in a full-force natural sort of way. I included the picture of my shop banner because that was something that I didn't try to do. When I made it, I didn't set out to. Etsy had recommended using Canva, so I just went on there to play. I experimented with many designs and fonts, just so I could learn what the site could do. I ended up choosing the combination of things that I loved, and my new banner was born. Every time I go into my shop, I like what I see. And I wasn't even trying...

When I created the Goddess, I was inspired by the beauty of a lake near my home. I had walked there numerous times, but on this particular morning, I was overwhelmed by the beauty of it. The emotion flowed through me and I went home and immediately created her. I simply wanted something to represent how I was feeling. I wanted something to reflect how beautiful this planet is and that we need more peace to heal it. Because I love this Goddess and what she represented, I thought she was the perfect addition to my shop banner.

From the creation of the "Peace on Earth" Goddess ornament, to the selection of colors and font for my banner, it just felt right. And I love the end result.

This morning, while walking my dog, I saw this tree and was impressed with the color of the leaves. I love this time of year and this was the first sign I have seen that it really is fall. I quickly snapped the photo while my 80 pound Akita/Boxer was pulling me to keep going. I didn't try to get the perfect shot, I just hit the button. Since it was early and the sun hadn't quite finished rising, the flash went off and I thought "Well that shot won't turn out, I'll have to come back later." I was pleasantly surprised when I got home and took a look at what the camera had captured.

So, moving forward with my business and creating a life that I love waking up to each day, I won't try. I will take positive steps inspired by what I love. I'll bet I end up on an amazing journey that will far surpass the path I would travel if I keep on trying. Sometimes the best results just sort of happen. It may have something to do with the saying "You just need to get out of your own way." I intend to do just that, by not trying. This shouldn't be mistaken for laziness, like I am just not going to do anything at all. Quite the contrary. I believe that my productivity will actually increase because I won't be so busy trying to do something, I will just be inspired to do it!

Since fall is about releasing and letting go, I fully release the need to try to make things happen. I let go and allow life to flow through me. I am excited to find out just how many of my conversations can start with "The most amazing thing just happened..."