Shattered to Wholeness

I have heard other women refer to painful events as the times their lives were shattered to pieces. Their hearts were broken and their lives fell apart. It happens to us all. When the hammer came down on my life this time, it was different. It occurred to me that my entire life was a series of events that kept shattering me toward wholeness.

I once again find myself at the point of everything being shattered. Even though the process is painful, I am reacting differently. I am embracing the events that are unfolding, knowing that they will come whether I like it or not. I know that I will once again find all of the shards of myself and reassemble them in a stronger and more beautiful way. Through this process, I am advancing myself on my path to wholeness. I know that I can do this because I have done it so many times before and always made it through. The difference this time is that I'm doing it with some dignity.

I am realizing that the Universe is consistently trying to urge me into alignment with my highest good. I can fight it every step of the way like I have done before, or I can embrace it. It is going to happen either way. This time I am choosing to go through the life shattering with intention and purpose. I am no longer a victim, I am a student of what God and the Universe is guiding me toward.

That's how I ended up thinking that starting a blog smack dab in the middle of a personal crisis was a good idea. I am taking the time to do something I have always wanted to do, write. I am ignoring the self sabotaging voice that is telling me that I should be packing for the upcoming move or getting the house ready to sell. This is the same voice that I should have told to shut up a long time ago. From this point forward I am taking time for myself, going within, and listening to the voice that I find there.

I made this mosaic a few months ago. It was the first piece I had ever made for myself. I never hung it up. Now that things are changing, I am glad I didn't. I am saving it for my new house. I can see it as a representation of the transformation I am going through. It serves as a reminder that it is important to take time for myself.