Circles

During meditation, I frequently see bright green misty clouds floating through the field of my minds' eye. I've always thought they had something to do with healing energies. They come through in various shapes and sizes, drifting by looking a little lost, like a spiritual version of retinal detachments. There is never a pattern or picture, they are just all over the place. I figured that was how they were supposed to be.

I have been working on healing myself consistently asking God, the angels and spirit guides for help, and devoting time to daily meditation. I had a cellular healing session a few weeks ago (if you've never had one, I highly recommend it.) My best friend just completed her C.Ht training and I felt compelled to try it. The results were amazing! I could feel a shift in me, a positive shift that I knew would bring me closer to the wholeness I am seeking. I have continued to do some self-hypnosis work and deeper meditations.

I have spent most of my life running in circles, going nowhere. I have repeated the same situations over and over. Events would come back around so I could learn the lesson again. I would make some progress in my life, then get knocked back in time to repeat something I thought I had already fixed. It's a real shame that I can't find a school that offers a Ph.D in self sabotage. I've always wanted some important initials at the end of my name and I found out that putting Rae Crow, ADhD on my business cards was not a sound business decision.

I wanted to break this pattern and I know only way to break the cycle is to heal the core issue. I realized that while doing all of this healing work, I should also change my perspective about circles. I thought about them and how they are a natural part of life. I remembered all of the positive aspects of circles, the earth, circles of friends, the rings of a tree, the medicine wheel, astrological charts...all of these positive influences are based around the circle.

During my mediation today, I saw the most amazing thing happen. All of the green misty clouds began to form a ring. They came floating by, but were magnetized to joining the circle and causing it to expand. Once the ring was whole, a beautiful purple cloud appeared in the center of the green circle. Tears of gratitude came from the depths of my soul and escaped from my eyes. I felt like I had called home all of the shattered parts of myself and became whole again.

Now that I have all of me to work with and I am not all over the place, I can expand my circle. It reminds me of The Prayer of Jabez by Bruce Wilkinson. I read it years ago and I guess I'm finally ready to enlarge my territory.